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For some reason today I really associate with the concept of yin-yang.  I feel like the wheel, constantly spinning from light to dark.  Momentarily I feel like times are dark, but light is out there.  I’m never completely without sense that light will come, but a sense of despair certainly is in control. Yesterday was more serene, but with a concern of what darkness lies ahead.  The positive of it all is I’m in a constant state of change and I’m not worried about stagnation. The yang to that yin is I worry that I’m like a whirlpool, destined to spin in one space constantly but never moving forward.   To take it further though, I constantly feel like I’m on one side of the whirlpool while everyone else is on the other side.  It feels like our spinning is keeping us out of reach and that without the ability to connect that we are destined to spend forever in the whirlpool.  The yin tells me though that while currently I’m alone in my life’s whirlpool, we all spin at different speeds and eventually a connection, or reconnection, will be made and the whirlpool will eventually be overcome.  The next quandary comes when I have to decide if I want to fight now, struggle to find a way out of the whirlpool and hope that when the connection comes along that, that is the final factor that will get me out, or do I just let go, bide my time, conserve myself and wait for the connection to be made and then move out of the circle.  I can see validity in either argument.  But then another question crosses my mind: am I supposed to hold out for that connection or do I have to accept that maybe I need to forge ahead alone?  What if I wait too long and miss my opportunity or what if everyone else gets out and I am left alone to spin forever?  I suppose if we knew all the answers to all of the outcomes there would be no point in anything.  Part of the experience is learning and growing and if we already have the answers, why try?  To harken back to the algebra class that I swore I’d never use, the unknown variable is key.  For now I’ll continue to spin, enjoying the rush of being swept around in a circle, never becoming stagnant, biding my time until it’s time to climb out of the water and go forth, where ever that path on land may lead.